Monday, November 30, 2009

THE FORGOTTEN


We believed them,
we saw them exult happiness
and euphoria in every
flutter of their wings.
They gave us dreams,
and saved us from nightmares,
and then they were gone.
forgotten by the same minds
that created them.
they'll never be relinquished
as the ones we thanked
for blessing our imaginations.
we'll leave them,
like young children forgetting homework,
just like they left us,
when we needed them most,
they'll hide and we'll find them,
and remember that at one time,
they were nothing more than
figments of our imagination.

BUTTERFLY KISSES [ODE TO SOMEONE...]

We wait,
steadily concentrating on
the pros and cons of what could happen.
My lips on the verge
of touching the round,
smooth, silky lining of yours.
My mouth got tense
I pulled back for a second.
That long long agonizing second
felt like years.
years of regretting this,
the chance to enjoy something
so vicious,
so adventurous.
I searched for something,
in the periphery of your eyes,
A sign that you were ready,
In your eyes,
I saw butterflies,
and in my reflection,
the same.Before I could even speak,
A blast of courage hit my lips.
and I loved it.
every tongue twist,
every sound and bite,
it felt like fire in our mouths,
like butterflies escaping
from our throats
just to flutter against
each other's wings.
you let my lips go, and with them,
you released my fears, my worries,
our butterflies into the atmosphere.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

WINTER



Snowflakes,
Aurora cried for summer's death.
The sun didn't come anymore.
All we had was the cold,
the frozen lakes,
the clouds,
and snowflakes.
At one time,
we watched stars shimmer,
in summer night skies.
We shared ripe peaches on river banks.
sweeter than sugar
were the orange, fuzzy peels
that sat wet and loose
hanging from your lips.
My tongue would tingle,
tingle at the feel of kissing it away.
We watched Helios carry
the sun across the Indian summer skies,
time passed us and our love right by,
and then it happened.
Warm breezes came no more,
hot summer nights became nothing but a memory,
and just like Phaeton's death,
our warm sun fell to our earth,
and set our trust,
our loyalty,
our lives,
our love,
on fire...
all that was left were the broken promises,
fake hellos,
shed tears,
unwritten love songs,
and us.
All we have as proof of the summer love we had,
are burnt photos,
unspoken words,
the cold,
the clouds,
and snowflakes.
All rotating, falling, and nipping
at the winter wonderland that became my heart.
lies gave us our painful winter,
and I hate that I love it so...

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Jigsaw Falling Into Place


"Words are blunt instruments, Words are a sawed-off shotgun" -Radiohead

Someone asked me what this song meant one time, and I really couldn't answer at first. I thought up something really interesting though, and I really liked it I guess. Sooooo, just to elaborate on it a little more, I believe the song is about love. It's about the moments before everything gets sloppy, and when things are just perfect in anticipation of events to come with a new potential lover. A night someone has never experienced yet can sometimes be the night they never forget. Where it says "before" this and "before" that. To me, it plays on how we appreciate the game so much, and how the catch is a lot more fun than actually maintaining what you've received. For example, the discrepancy between hooking up and getting married.
Also, i would like to amend some of the lyrics. it's not "you've got a cheshire cat grin" it's "WE'VE got a cheshire cat grin" hence the "all blurring into one" line afterwards. I used a piece of software called "roni slow-me-down" for winamp to listen to the song at a slower pace and it is DEFINITELY "we've" and not "you've". To me, this dramatically changes the emphasis of the situation present. Somebody please listen to the new studio version and try to figure out if it's We've or You've because it's been driving me nuts. Also, the line "Before you start unravelling" is not in the studio version either, it is replaced with "Before you're lost between the notes" and the next line is "just as you take the mic". The rest of the song is ok. but i feel like i've listened to it enough times now as it is my favorite song, but everyone seems to get that one lyric backwards about the cheshire cat grin.

Broken Dolls


You're like a doll made of stone,
I cant scratch through your surface.
You're like a puppet,
You do what you're told,
You're like a mannequin,
Your expression is dull and useless.
I endure hours of pain,
constantly trying to fix a broken doll,
I can't cry to you the way I want,
You sit there and say no words.
I reach my arms out to you,
and constantly it backfires.
Time after time,
I walk away with splinters.
My heart bleeds more than
An emo child's wrist,
Because your careless attitude
is like a razorblade to my veins.
You're a broken doll,
and yet I still find a way to love you.
As much as it hurts me to say,
You have no motivation.
No reason to move,
Like robot legs without a motor.
I try so hard to let you know
That all I want is for you to love me
As much as I love you.
For you to hold me like I'm worth something.
For you to love me.
But, I guess there's a time where we all realize,
Things change.
Metal into rust,
Paint into dust,
And just like a lightbulb,
We all need a replacement.

Monday, November 16, 2009

My New Obsession



Soooooooo, this has to be the most random post I've ever done but honestly, after thisone, I think I'm gonna just stick to serious writing. I just want the world to know that I fucking love London D ! LMFAOOOOOOO ! OMGEESH ! What is there not to love about him !? He's smart, he has the cutest voice, the way he smiles, and laughs, and looks at you when he's serious ! UGH ! HE'S FUCKING AWESOME, AND I'VE ONLY MET THIS GUY ONCE ! ROTFL ! I'm the worse ! Ithink Ineed some assisstance but anywayszzzz, yeahhhh I'm obsessed with him . 0.< [such a flipping cutie...](P.S. HE'S FAMOUS BUTT-FACESZ ! I DONT JUST GET OBSESSED WITH RANDOM PPL ! HE'S A MODEL !)

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Sweet Dreams


Dream:[Dreem] noun. 1. a series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. The content and purpose of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history.

This summer, I have thought of alot of things. One thing that has annoyed the balance of my mind is the state of sleep known as dreaming. Why do we do it? Why is it that anything we want can appear in a dream, but never in real life? Why is sex something completely natural in dreams, but a complete taboo in real life? Why can I have cheese curls whenever I want in a dream, but have to pay 1.25 plus tax at a store for a bag of barbecue cheese flavored cheese curls that only has about 10 in the bag??? Things like that, you know? Well, I'm no scientist, and I'm surely not the lead doctor in the institute of the study of oneirology [study of dreams, for you jackasses who don't know how to use the internet [more like online dictionary] for it's actual uses] , but I do think alot about dreams, and most of you do know me to be quite a theorocist. Most recently, I had a dream about me and [insert name here] being very...well...relationship-ish. Now they say, when you have dreams about other ppl romantically, you obviously have feelings for them somewhere deep down. Well, to tell you the honest truth, I think [insert name here] is a complete immature jackass, who the last time i had feelings for was in 6th grade. So what exactly does that mean? Because I hate this person so, my brain simulated a "series of images, IDEAS, and emotions and sensations" as some sort of reverse psychology? Another thing. Why do ppl claim that dreams tell some kind of future? like when ppl say "I dreamt of fish last night" the first thing out of another person's mouth is "Uh OH! Who's pregnant in this room???" like WTF! WHat does fish have to do with the process of a sperm fertilizing an egg during a woman's ovulation cycle? or even when a person says they're in love with the guy who kissed them in their dreams! What makes ppl think its love when they get kissed? and what makes them think that the person will feel the same way because they volunteerily kissed last night while you were stuck in your "series of images, IDEAS, and emotions and sensations"!?!?! What people dont seem to wrap their minds around when they read the definition of Dream is "IDEA"! No one can tell me that they've never fanticized about someone who they think is absolutely adorable physically, but in every other way is absolutely revolting!?!?!? THats the question when it comes to dreams. Why don't ppl realize dreams are just ideas that the human mind creates from what you think of, as to some, sweet dreams, and to others such as myself, cruel, comedic, and completely tragic entertainment? Last night, before I went to bed, my father said "Suenos Dulces, nino." After being a victim of my "series of images, IDEAS, and emotions and sensations", my dulce suenos was more like a HERMOSA PESODILLA, that brung me great laughs that will soon be the short comedic entertainment that will lighten my dark and destructive moods, ultimately giving me many SUENOS DULCES...

yeahhhh...So this is my first blog !
[yeyy] ummmm IDK what to say about myself...
Well just to start off
-I'm 16
-I have alot of deep shit going on in my head,
I just nvr have the patience to write it down !
-I have an obsession with Barbiesz, Kensz, Robotsz, and Nicki Minaj !
-[Yes ! I'm wierd !]

I guess dhats all you need to knoe...
first couple of thoughts will be released in an hour or soooo...hehee !